Trees touch windows, say their hellos. We hear this house as it settles in. Worry slips away. It don't know your name. It don't know where to find us.
BLAHHH BLAHHH BLAHHH!!
Monday, September 26, 2011
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry; you don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you, tell you I need you, tell you I'll set you apart. Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions; oh, let's go back to the start. Running in circles, chasing tails, heads on a science apart. Nobody said it was easy. It's such a shame for us to part. Nobody said it was easy. No one ever said it would be this hard; oh, take me back to the start.
Exposure.
We are the world!
Exposure.
We are the world!
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
I do a lot of thinking before I go to sleep!
i play scenes in my head.
i practice the things i want to say.
i have endless "what IFs"
i make plans for the next day
i think of all people i miss
i think of all the ones i hate
i ask myself a lot of questions.
UNTITLED II
I'm just tired.
I don't have any motivation to get up in the morning.
I say no to hanging out with friends just because.
I yell at people who don't deserve it,
I get upset over the stupidest things.
I cry much too often.
I'm too irritable and I snap at people too much.
Most of the time I don't understand the thing I do,
or why I do them in the first place.
Depression isn't something that doesn't goes away over night,
it's an illness.
So mom, dad, I'm sorry.
I hope that you can understand why I'm so quiet at dinner,
and why I don't like doing family activities.
I'm sorry to all my friends who don't understand,
I wish I could let you inside my head
because I feel like you all see me as an over dramatic woman,
I'm just sensitive.
I can't help it. I don't want be this way anymore.
It hurts. I hope you can understand.
I don't have any motivation to get up in the morning.
I say no to hanging out with friends just because.
I yell at people who don't deserve it,
I get upset over the stupidest things.
I cry much too often.
I'm too irritable and I snap at people too much.
Most of the time I don't understand the thing I do,
or why I do them in the first place.
Depression isn't something that doesn't goes away over night,
it's an illness.
So mom, dad, I'm sorry.
I hope that you can understand why I'm so quiet at dinner,
and why I don't like doing family activities.
I'm sorry to all my friends who don't understand,
I wish I could let you inside my head
because I feel like you all see me as an over dramatic woman,
I'm just sensitive.
I can't help it. I don't want be this way anymore.
It hurts. I hope you can understand.
Friday, September 2, 2011
My life through Photography.
Neon Style.
:|
Just imagine colour consulting.
But when the whether changed.
Inspirations(:
Our dream is to be free(:
Happy thing's
The Beautiful Ordinary
We fly balloons on this fuel called love.
; i'm gonna love forever or die trying.
Dreaming of fields of cream
You can’t see me, no, like I see you. I can’t have you, no, like you have me.
I crossed the small super market on my way to my college, confused, angry and hurt feeling clouding my mind. [A friend] feel into step beside me. I groaned; I was already late, so my mentor wouldn’t be happy. Hell, he was never happy with me lately, not ever since, well, that one thing back when.
He glanced at me. “What’s up?”
“The sky, dumbass.” I growled.
He looked offended. Good. “Touché, Touché.”
I looked down at my watch and started sprinting off, “Screw you!”
He laughed, “You offering?”
---
I met [B friend ]outside the cafeteria. I was pissed, and sadly, most of the time with my gift and personality, its hard to hide emotions.
"What's up?"
I smirked, "My sister's back in town."
"Shouldn't you be happy? I mean she must love you if she came back."
"She could've been there for me! Instead she completely abandoned me. I'm not sure what your definition of love is, but that is certainly not something you do out of love," I hissed.
She narrowed my eyes. "I'm sorry... I didn't realize how complicated it was for you..."
"Complicated?!" I snorted. Complicated didn’t even begin to explain our ‘relationship’, if you could even call it that. "You're saying that my relationship with my sister is complicated?" I glared at her. "What about you and deer boy, huh? What the hell is your relationship?!" I got up quickly, giving her a quick glare. "Don't be judging other people's relationships when you can't even figure out your own."
I walked off, fuming, flames beginning to become visible behind me as I walked.
---
Walking past a big tree, I conjured a large tissue ball and threw it angrily.
Sinking down, in front of a tree, I let out a muffled sob. I pulled my legs up, and wrapped my arms around them. Resting my head on my knees, I watched the tree that the flame hit burn.
A few hours later I was still sitting in the same position. Hearing the crunching of leaves I looked over to see my bff walking towards me. I smiled at her slightly as she sat down next to me.
She glanced over, “Aren’t you cold?”
I shrugged, “Nope.”
She frowned, “Are you sure? What happened?”
I warmed the air, leaning against him, “Yeah. I sorta got into a small argument.”
Her's eyes widened, “What was it about?”
I scowled, “She said I should be happy that sister is in town.” I didn’t like talking about my sister. Or my parents, for that matter.
Ps [A, B friend] I don't wanna mention my friends name
He glanced at me. “What’s up?”
“The sky, dumbass.” I growled.
He looked offended. Good. “Touché, Touché.”
I looked down at my watch and started sprinting off, “Screw you!”
He laughed, “You offering?”
---
I met [B friend ]outside the cafeteria. I was pissed, and sadly, most of the time with my gift and personality, its hard to hide emotions.
"What's up?"
I smirked, "My sister's back in town."
"Shouldn't you be happy? I mean she must love you if she came back."
"She could've been there for me! Instead she completely abandoned me. I'm not sure what your definition of love is, but that is certainly not something you do out of love," I hissed.
She narrowed my eyes. "I'm sorry... I didn't realize how complicated it was for you..."
"Complicated?!" I snorted. Complicated didn’t even begin to explain our ‘relationship’, if you could even call it that. "You're saying that my relationship with my sister is complicated?" I glared at her. "What about you and deer boy, huh? What the hell is your relationship?!" I got up quickly, giving her a quick glare. "Don't be judging other people's relationships when you can't even figure out your own."
I walked off, fuming, flames beginning to become visible behind me as I walked.
---
Walking past a big tree, I conjured a large tissue ball and threw it angrily.
Sinking down, in front of a tree, I let out a muffled sob. I pulled my legs up, and wrapped my arms around them. Resting my head on my knees, I watched the tree that the flame hit burn.
A few hours later I was still sitting in the same position. Hearing the crunching of leaves I looked over to see my bff walking towards me. I smiled at her slightly as she sat down next to me.
She glanced over, “Aren’t you cold?”
I shrugged, “Nope.”
She frowned, “Are you sure? What happened?”
I warmed the air, leaning against him, “Yeah. I sorta got into a small argument.”
Her's eyes widened, “What was it about?”
I scowled, “She said I should be happy that sister is in town.” I didn’t like talking about my sister. Or my parents, for that matter.
Ps [A, B friend] I don't wanna mention my friends name
Battle Of Hogwarts.
I'd be fighting with 'em and then we'd get separated and I'd end up next to Fred Wesley just before his death. After Harry defeats Voldemort I'd be sitting with Spencer and Jon (they'd start dating a week or so after Dumbledore's funeral) worrying about Brendon who I hadn't seen at all during the battle.
[myself]
Name: Zaii Na'eem
Age: 17.
Species: Vampire.
Affinity if a Vampire {Element they control}: Fire.
Bio: {Mod}
Likes: To love, music, tattoo, comics, mini-coopers, thunder.
Dislikes: Boring things, detentions, people messing with her friends.
Side Their On: Good.
Anything Else: Nope.
Model: Valerie 'Lights' Poxleitner.
Age: 17.
Species: Vampire.
Affinity if a Vampire {Element they control}: Fire.
Bio: {Mod}
Likes: To love, music, tattoo, comics, mini-coopers, thunder.
Dislikes: Boring things, detentions, people messing with her friends.
Side Their On: Good.
Anything Else: Nope.
Model: Valerie 'Lights' Poxleitner.
BLAHHH!
This love is not what you want; this heart will never be yours. This love is be and end all; this love will be your downfall.
Calm your nerves now and don't worry, just breathe. Don't bother packing; let's just leave.
'Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light. There's a drug in the thermostat to warm the room up and there's another around to help us bend your trust. I've got a sunset in my veins.
It's so cold here, did you shut the door when you left? It's mid-winter and it feels like I'm taking my last breath.
You had me crawling for you honey and it never would've gone away. You used to shine so bright but I watched all of it fade.
You’re the boy with a real nice smile but a broken heart inside. Give it to a girl, gave it to a girl and I think she lost her mind.
'Cos since I've come on home, well my body's been a mess and I've missed your ginger hair and the way you like to dress.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
bout' love?
I need you now.
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone cause I cant fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
Its a quarter after one
Im all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldnt call
But Ive lost all control and I need you now
And I dont know how I can do without
I just need you now
Another shot of whiskey cant stop looking at the door
Wishing youd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time...
Reaching for the phone cause I cant fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
Its a quarter after one
Im all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldnt call
But Ive lost all control and I need you now
And I dont know how I can do without
I just need you now
Another shot of whiskey cant stop looking at the door
Wishing youd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time...
So much pain... :[
"You know, I really belived that it will be different this time..but I supose I was wrong :((:((......."
....Boy all I want u to know is that I miss u like crazy!!:((...
....Boy all I want u to know is that I miss u like crazy!!:((...
All we'd ever need... :(
Boy it's been all this time
And I can't get you off my mind
And nobody knows it but me
I stare at your photograph
Still sleep in the shirt you left
And nobody knows it but me
Everday I wipe my tears away
So many nights
I've pray for you to say
Chorus:
I should have been chasing you
I should have been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me
I should have said all the things
That I kept inside of me and maybe
I could have made you believe
That what we had was all we ever need
My friends think I'm moving on
But the truth is that
Nobody knows it but me
And I've kept
All the works you said
In a box underneath my bed
And nobody knows it but me
But if youre happy
I'll get through somehow
But the truth is that
I've been spinning..... :( :(
And I can't get you off my mind
And nobody knows it but me
I stare at your photograph
Still sleep in the shirt you left
And nobody knows it but me
Everday I wipe my tears away
So many nights
I've pray for you to say
Chorus:
I should have been chasing you
I should have been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me
I should have said all the things
That I kept inside of me and maybe
I could have made you believe
That what we had was all we ever need
My friends think I'm moving on
But the truth is that
Nobody knows it but me
And I've kept
All the works you said
In a box underneath my bed
And nobody knows it but me
But if youre happy
I'll get through somehow
But the truth is that
I've been spinning..... :( :(
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